Hello, Insomnia, My Old Friend (sung to Simon and Garfunkle tune)

You have to love the bouts. No story brewing that would be to easy. No, it's the kind where you run through your head what you should have done or should have said. How you should spend your money, which only leads to what you still have left to purchase. Which will of course lead to where the kids should go to college. My personal favorite, how will you pay for college.

I know these moments of self doubting are normal. I understand it's slings and arrows to make me doubt the decisions I've made in my life lately. I know where they come from and how to fight them. I know that they will pass in time. I just hate going through them.

It's the time in the evening when the house is all sleeping and I am forced to be still with only my own thoughts

Beowulf

We've all seen the reviews. The highest I've seen the movie get is a B, and this leaves me a bit perplexed. For once they actually stuck to the story line! I know. I couldn't believe it either,but I was impressed. As for the graphics, any online gamer will tell you they did a really good job. The best part of the film for me?

Normally when I watch a 3d movie, I'm left wondering what the big deal is. For what ever reason I do not get to enjoy the same effects as everyone else. This time I actually got to see the stuff popping off the screen! I must say this new "REALD" is awesome. Even the upcoming movie previews popped. Looks like they are going to do more movies with this technology. I for one am all for it. Brandon Frasier will be delighting me this summer in a remake of "Journey to the Center of the Earth", and really, any sci-fi/fantasy fan worth their salt will be checking this one out.

The worst draw back to the new REALD will be the glasses. No longer are they paper and films red and blue lens. Now you either look like Drew Carey or Buddy Holley. But I much prefer that look to the old style glasses.

As for Beowulf and his group of fighting thanes? Well as soon as the DVD goes on sale, I shall invite them all to live with me.

Beat'n by technology again.

This must not be my week for electronics. Yesterday I get home from work, and all I want to do is have a cup of coffee and check my e-mail. Only to discover that my computer wigged out and my Internet is down. Fine, I'm a big girl. I can handle one little night with out the computer. I had a book to read. Somehow I managed to make it through and bright and early my sister was on the phone with the cable guy, trying to reset our modem. Thirty minutes it took us to get the guy to find and fix the problem, while trying to convince him that we weren't moron's!
(stop laughing)

My computer had no problems connecting, the other two systems apparently were on the outs with the router and would not talk to it period. I mean, it sent flowers, candy, sweet little poems..nothing. Oh, the other systems could see the router, they knew it was there. They just refused to talk to it. Finally we get that lovers tiff worked out, and everyone is happy. A joyful evening was spent by all checking myspace and e-mails.

Until I decided "Hey, wouldn't it be great if I put a picture up on my blog, like everyone else?"

(stop laughing, I mean it!)

As you can see by my updated profile that was a great success. Twenty minutes of reading and rereading the instructions...computer 25, Me 0.

But that's okay...tomorrow is another day.

Dating in the Modern Era.....

So you look around and find yourself single, again. Never thought it would happen to you, but here you are. Your older, wiser, and a bit more self confident than the last time around, but you realize (after a fateful night in an old favorite stomping ground) you've out grown the bar scene. All of your single friends..well they went and got married. Now your also out a wing man. And any of the eligible single friends your friends would have had? yep they aren't single either.

What ever is a girl to do?

There are a few options. Everyone has seen the commercials for Matchdotcom or Eharmony right? These sights want you to pay a membership fee to get hooked up with other singles. Yahoo has a personals service too. However of all the choices out there for dating sights..So far I like Singlesnetdotcom the best.

Most of these sights let you "flirt" for free. Or as yahoo calls it "send an icebreaker" the catch comes in when if your not a member you can not respond back.
Oh you can send a return flirt or icebreaker, but that's it.

Singles is different. If either the flirter or flirtee are members you can e-mail each other for free as often as you like. So if your just starting out and not wanting to make an investment..this is a good way to go.

Fair warning though...the rules of dating have changed..that's for another post.

Writers Block...

Working evenings now, I have come to really appreciate that I can watch most of my favorite shows on my computer. Yes we have the cable box that records shows, but they only have so much space and the some of the shows I like the rest of the family isn't into. I love that just like tuning in on show night, I don't have to pay to watch. To me it's like catching the show in syndication. To that end I don't understand the writers strike.

As a writer, I understand wanting to be compensated for the work one creates. But do writers on staff get royalty fees every time a show re-airs? If not then they have no business complaining when a network re-airs on-line. They received payment when they first wrote the script. That is now property of the network.

I could be completely off base, maybe I don't have both sides of the story. If that is the case please someone enlighten me. As I see right now though. These writers are just whining for something that isn't theirs to whine about anyway.

Now if you'll excuse me, I have some TV to catch up on.

Coffee conversations.....

Last night my ill fated partner in life and crime and I got together for one of our old fashioned coffee sessions. The things that can come out of these events can be mind blowing, like trees that fork and then grow back in to each other, but are also very theraputic.

We have both been going through some life altering changes and played sounding board for each other. One thing that struck me as we did our conversation tango, was that both of us had stopped blogging because we were afraid of what we would say. Or worse trying to write about anything but what was going on. How it left us feeling flat/empty, so that it was easier not to write at all.

I haven't been posting because.....

1) The dog ate my rough draft.

2) A huge tornado swept through my town and took me to a far away place.

3) I wrote it, hit what I thought was post and it deleted the whole thing.

4) I still haven't finished reading War and Peace.

5) I needed to do my hair.


Basically I could come up with a thousand and one excuses to go with the Arabian nights, but none of them would hold water for long.

I haven't written because of what I am afraid will show up on the page. As some of you know, Allen and I have separated again. Out of that feelings are being felt that I'm not comfortable putting down for the world to see. And as I tend to write what I'm feeling, I didn't write.

It didn't help that I would peruse his blog and go from sad, to anger, to thoughts of flaming him all over his own blog. I needed to get my emotions in check. I won't say that I'm all better. I will say I'm okay. Good days, bad days, sometimes a little of both.

Separation/Divorce has it's own grieving process like death. Just not sure where in the process I am.

On a lighter note...getting good material on the pro's and con's of dating in the modern era.